Worst March Ever!
I was a little too optimistic when I stated in the last newsletter
that things were getting better in March. They actually got worst.
This has been a very rough year for my family. In February my brother
had a roll-over car accident that has left him in a neck brace for 3
months. We were extremely lucky that he survived. In March my sister
was in the hospital for 3 weeks, if we had waited any longer to bring
her in she wouldnt have made it. She didnt want to go when
she got very ill, due to lack of insurance and a distrust of doctors.
We were once again extremely lucky in that we got her to the hospital
in time to save her.
I spend most of March in constant worry and stress. The first week
my sister was in the hospital, my boyfriend decided to go to the doctor
as he had some symptoms that worried him. He learned from my sister
and went to check it out before it became more serious. I was glad he
did, now he is doing better too.
For three weeks my life was either work and then go to the hospital,
or go to the hospital. My sister was very weak and could not do much
for herself. We realize how busy nurses are so we tried to have someone
there with my sister so she wouldnt have to ring the nurse every
few minutes. I would come home, exhausted, around 8:30 at night and
then have to eat, shower, and try to fit in phone calls and keeping
the house in order. Once she got better, my mom and I took shifts so
neither had to be there all day. It was still hectic. Neither one of
our houses got cleaned during this time, except for a little here and
a little there.
I am proud that I was able to put aside the worried sister aspect and
deal calmly and rationally with all the little crisis that came up while
at the hospital. My parents and my sister were able to count on me for
strength and clarity while I was in their presence. I waited until I
was home to get emotional. And I had to do it alone. My boyfriend wasnt
here the first two weeks, as he had to deal with his own medical condition.
He told me not to visit him as my family needed me more, he was doing
fine. We talked every night but its not the same as having someone physically
there. So I could unload to some degree but then I was also trying to
be supportive for him. And the phone calls to friends to keep them updated,
altho mostly supportive, didnt leave me feeling better, just exhausted.
It was the God and Goddess that pulled me through. I felt Their presence
with me the whole time. I made several offerings of apples, some for
healing or strength, some in gratitude. I really felt the Goddesss
presence while standing behind my home and making the offering, I
always felt calmer afterwards. I asked Them to watch over my sister
during her surgery and to guide the minds and hands of the surgeons.
And They did. Some say times like this test your faith, I think its
times like this when you need to lean on your faith even more. And
it doesnt matter who you have faith in...God, Goddess, or the
Monster.....this is the time when you will feel their presence
and know that no matter what, you are not alone.
All the things I haven't done....
So another holiday came and went without our usual group ritual. We
were unable to celebrate both Imbolc and Ostara/Spring Equinox due to
illnesses. While I was able to do my own ritual at Imbolc, Ostara was
a different matter. On the Equinox, I spent the morning at the hospital
dealing with my sisters refusal to accept another blood transfusion.
Once our parents and I discussed it rationally with her, she said ok.
Since our parents and her boyfriend were there, I decided to come home.
I did some cleaning and finally set out my spring decorations of silk
flowers, bunnies, and eggs. I set up an altar to Ostara and lit a candle
on it. That was my ritual. It was all I had the energy for. I tried
to relax and catch up on a few things. It was calming and just what
I needed. I was re-energized for the coming week.
Alicia and I were supposed to do a rock swap on March 26th. I missed
that too. For one thing, I had no time to go through my rocks from the
U.P. to decide what to sell, something I had put off until just before
the show. And my sisters surgery was set for the 25th. I was at
the hospital until 9pm the night before and had to get there by 9am
the morning of in order to see her. She was still out of it when we
left the hospital around 7pm so I wouldnt be able to see her until
the next day. Lets see, a rock show or seeing my sister after
surgery......not a hard decision.
I was also unable to create anything new for the next Holistic show.
I had planned on making more jewelry and soap. No time or energy for
any of that. I have worked a little on the website. Some of my new pendulums
are online, I just put them in place of some that sold so you would
have to look at both pendulum
pages to see them. I also finally added my newer stone sets to the
site also. They are sets for protection, money and love. Find them and
all our sets on the Stone
So now you know why I have nothing new for sale and why this newsletter
is so late. Its been a crazy year so far and its only April! So Im
not making any plans because none of them have panned out this year.
Ill do what I can when I can. I hope to have the newsletters more
regular but that is up to the Powers That Be.
Holistic Show & Online Special
I will be at the Holistic Show at Gibraltar Trade Center in Mt. Clemens
this weekend, April 15, 16, & 17. Ill be there when I get
there on Friday until 9pm. Saturday is 10am to 8pm and Sunday is 10am
to 6pm. Dont let the gas prices stop you, come on out and see
me and all the other vendors/readers/ healers that need a good show
to pay for our gas! If you get a chance, check out Gibraltars
new website. I was pleasantly surprised to find that I am in one of
the pictures they now feature on the Holistic
show page. Actualy I'm in two. One is of my space and you can tell
its me standing there (not a great pic but then I didn't know it
was being taken), and the other shot is of the whole isle, I am
standing in the isle but I'm at the far end so you might not be able
to tell its me (just look for Millie's space and you'll se me). Cool,
The April online special is Free Shipping. Valid only on orders placed
through our website during the month of April.
May the Flying Spaghetti Monster bless you will happiness and lots
~~~~Rhiannon Rose @--^--